i wonder if theres a thing to make it feels easier
but nothing
my 18 years experience are useless, though
another thing is : everyone except me are cute
it makes it a bit harder
tolerating myself
is there somewhere who can accept me and being my home?
for a long time since today
i need a place
a better place
to stay
to sleep
to decrease my anxiety
to cry
to laugh
to be the answer of why should i go farther
because resting is a part of living
and half of it i got from somebody's existence;
you, whoever still awake and sit beside me today
can i ask you to be my forever home?
if not, thats not okay
if yes, thats not okay too
everything is bad when you were the only one i want
and the only one i want to protect from every darkness
including my toxicity
thats it
thats why its hard to be me