break up

break up with my own dream is the worst thing that i have ever experienced in my life. it feels like you lose xx% of your ownself, a nightmare, an apocalypse. you have to let go of your inner child, your hope, your big reasons for living longer. but at the same time, you did all of that to stay alive too

sometimes it is because the situation and mental capacity dont match it. sometimes it is just because the reality hits us hard with so many hidden-bitter things that we are not ready to face it. in the end, you feel like you are too small for what you want

or this world is just too big

or you are just too weak

it depends

in this case, i'm both